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  enspiring Self shows as aspiring self
gary e. davis
July 22, 2017

Oneself, one self, a person... Oneself is represented as a live “person,” but a self is always more than what’s representable to-and-with others, more than alive for “us,” because a self is living the life, not as “one” present to others, but as self. Moreover, oneself is selfness—a Self, beyond a conception of oneself (beyond being distinct from representations as person to-and-with others). It’s potentially complicated, but that’s how potential lives.

Many persons easily enough see the difference between sense of self to oneself and representation of oneself to-and-with others, but don’t have a sense of difference between self understanding and elusive ongoingness of vitality itself: being enspired openness to appeals (as what matters) or the feeling of open responsiveness enactively being (especially as spontaneity, as if being enacted), in which overt sense of self emerges as reflective consolidation of oneSelf, as always growing, learning. individuating.

Some definite sense of selfidentity may be easy, but differentiating clear sense from the living of oneSelf, being, shows as appeals to which one is drawn—though heartfulness is not mirrored in every appeallant window. Ordinary appeals “live” in landscapes of higher appeals, greater importances; intimating an ecosphere of worthwhileness, “ultimately” an ecology of revere-ence with which selfidentity is heartfully engaged through mirrorwindows of oneSelf horizoning.

Does that seem nonsensical?

More simply: Healthy Self enspires to actualize, to embody “good life” for selfidentity, ideally anticipating wholly being well. But ideality isn’t thereby a factual generality. Ideality is always prospective—applicable to an always-futural life, maybe—proffered as desirability that is found (the purposiveness that the life feels to already always have), desirability made, and always still to be found (as long as “I” am alive).

This might be easier to envision as a named character, a fiction: Alsa, which I’ll return to later. The name is an acronym (non-capitalized: ‘alsa’), but capping expresses the as-if pertinence of ideality as an identity. This is convenient inasmuch as a conceptuality may be embodied by a person (I’m not “Alsa”) or by a group!

Alsa (non-gendered) has a curious mind, from Day One of life onward. Self-enhancive and self enhancive interest of “the” Inner Child enspires Alsa far into high individuation (a scientific artistry?), keeping high importance life-oriental lifelong—and so on, definitely an ideality.


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